I couldn't believe that six posts in this blog points out to you and only you (I'd like to think that) and no one else. dlsjkfsjkfd WHY AM I SO INCOHERENT.

If you're just here, everything would be okay. I won't be so confused like this. :|

Okay, I'd like to blame you...but of course, I can't. I couldn't.

I get it. I never really fully realized how's it to love someone...and how to be loved back. I hate how in my eighteen years of experience, I get to be the less favorite daughter, the not-so-relevant friend, and the not-so-interesting girl in school. Whaddup, I don't blame mom or dad or anyone. I love them, okay. I mean, OF COURSE, I love my family and I know I love them...but outside the familial ties, people care so little about me even my own friends. I'd like to say it's unfair. When someone's in a big trouble, I try to help them as much as I can, it's just that they don't think I care. But I REALLY DO. And that's why they all think I don't need any help. On anything. It sucks, but it's true. I envy a LOT of my friends. Their friends give them things and attention that I never had. Ever. Maybe it's me to blame, after all. I don't say anything. I just get all emotional and then I won't really say anything. I hide my frustrations quite perfectly that even though I say "I'm  not okay", it won't be convincing. A friend even pointed out that she envies me because I don't seem to have any problem and I'm happy everyday. Well, at least that's how I am in school. I don't want too much drama with people around me...but, I also don't want being completely ignored and treated as "the least relevant".

I don't make sense here.
Really.
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